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mmmhm.

i feel like taking an online survey thingy. im soo bored. havent really "hung out" with anyone. but there's actually a few people who said they wanted to sometime. colin is still mad at me.... i called him and said "wow, you answered it" and he asked if it was important and i said "..maybe" and he hung up. i dont understand why he's upset this time. we started talking about a week into school again and i thought everything was fine but then i went to my friend's birthday party and this kid who also goes to my school who doesnt like colin grabbed my phone and started talking except he was being really nice so i let it go. well, then he goes "ok, so i'll give you back to your little girlfriend now" and then colin hung up. i think that's why, it has to be. i've appologized like 5 times and everytime he's just like "wahtever, i dont care." and doesnt talk to me. it's not like i told this kid to say that to him on the phone. it wasnt my fault, i didnt think he'd say something like that. my friend says it's my fault because she says "when he was so nice to you, you were just an asshole back... for no reason" and i was sooo angry that she said that, because i wasnt. the only time i was acting that way is if he said something that totally hurt my feelings, which happened often but i usualy let it slip and didnt say anything. it's like she judges me on something that she was NEVER there to see nor hear, so how would she know? nobody was ever there when i was around with him... ever! nobody know's shit. the only things that people know are what i decided to tell them or what he told people and some were even lies. anyway. more drama... and im really tired of it all. welp. i was absent thursday and friday and i found out during 4th block that this kid i went out with for a day told my friend and some other chick i know that we "hooked up" again the same day we broke up. oh me jesus! seriously, what's wrong with this kid? im starting to think there's something mentally wrong with him because he just doesnt seem right at all. im not being mean, believe me. i found out that this kid asked one of my friends out a week before we started dating but she said she'd think about it. and then my friend asked him out for me (she wanted me to date him badly) and he said yes. wellll... it turns out that friday (the 2nd day) he was talking to the friend he asked out and told her he wanted to date her and not me. he told me that she told him she wanted to date him and that he shouldnt date me. so, we sorta broke up with eachother i guess you can say. so..... im just confused. i dont wanna date him, and if he's telling people we are dating... im gonna slap him because that's just retarded and normal people dont do that shit.

 

 

ok. im through. 

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fake it enough...

so... it's been kinda boring. never got to see TBS, it got rained out and everything. they can't reschedule it either so... i'm just gonna have to wait till they come around again next year hopefully. me and nicole were bummed, we reeeeaallllly wanted to see them, we even stood in the rain/muddy grass for almost 2 hours before the cancelled it and made everyone go back. my hair was also "leaking" it was like 2 days after i dyed it, so ofcourse it would but i didnt care. well, schools in like 6 days, and i dont wanna go. the reasons: IT'S SCHOOL! and the people... i dont have like any friends here what-so-ever. im just anti-social and dont talk to anyone unless im in a really good mood(rarely anymore) or they talk to me first. saurday im going school shopping, yesss! then monday or tuesday i have to re-dye my hair back to the red/brown color it used to be for school. i've been really into this song by underoath lately... it's weird because i never really tried to take a good listen to underoath before and from what i did listen to i didnt like much.

one last thing,  I still miss him. :-/ bad... i know.

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concert
  • july 18th
  • circa survive, youinseries & the recieving end of sirens
  • the social, orlando
  • $13 advance/ $15 door
  • doors open at 4pm
  • show starts at 5
  • going
  • =)
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taking back sunday

-Coachman Park, Clearwater

-July 13th

-Taking Back Sunday

-Me and my Best Friend, Nicole Collins.

 

YEAAA!

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whatever
why does it feel like it's going to be like hell trying to be ok... even when i think im ok, im just not anymore. oh and it's been like this since the weekend. you think it's easy, put yourself in my position and change the people and you'd be feeling the same. yepp.
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